Feeling Bloggy


I got called out on Instagram for my lack of blogginess. So today, I feel bloggy. There’s currently a photo challenge for the month of February and I’ve been focused on doing daily posts. My life has been occupied with working out, sleeping, working, planning meals, focusing on good things — I guess I just wasn’t feeling the urge.

So there it is — check out my account to see my take on the theme of the day.

The one for today that I wanted to post, but then didn’t is here. The theme was skin. The truth is that I am not that upset about loose skin. I don’t have it that bad, but it’s still a trip.  The wrinkly bunched up skin shows up most when I am doing push-up.  It hangs forward on my arms. It hangs from my stomach and back, and my thighs. I’ve said it before – it’s like a badge of honor. My skin has been along with me on this journey from beginning to end.

My entry for Day 10 of the #WLSFeb2017PhotoChallenge: Skin

So what else?

I just finished a 6-week long session of Kaia Fit.  It’s interesting that my weight loss completely stopped since I started working out fairly intensely, but my body composition is changing and I’m certainly getting more compact, not matter how slowly that’s happening.

I think people are noticing the changes more than I am. I’ve had people tell me I don’t need to lose anymore, or ask me what my secret is.  For the most part I have been pretty open about my surgery, but I don’t really share with people I am not that close to. I know a lot of people in my support groups on Facebook are extraordinarily private. I was too, in the beginning. This week must just be the one where everyone decided to complement me.  Maybe it’s all of my new super cute LulaRoe clothes.  Have I mentioned that? I have become a LulaRoe addict. I have a few pix posted over on Instagram of some of my new things. I am trying to figure out what my style is — outside of jeans and sweatshirts which is what you will typically find me on on the weekends.  It’s been fun dressing up a little more, even though I don’t have to.

I somehow think that my focus on being positive is somehow making me more approachable where people will say something to me. Whatever it is, I like it! I’m making new friends through Kaia Fit, I feel more social and all of this is good since I lowered all of my anti-anxiety and anti-depressant meds.

While it seems like my little life is perfect, it’s a constant struggle. I have to work hard to keep my head in this place. I have to fight the negative self-talk and self-doubt. I have to live day to day and not focus on weight as a number or the fact that the scale isn’t moving. I actually think I am done losing weight. Or maybe my body wants to just sit here for a while until it realizes that we haven’t entered an apocalyptic ice age and it needs to store every calorie.  I still know my metabolism is moving at snail’s pace, meaning every calorie I take in needs to be of the highest quality. I still can only eat about 1/2 cup at a time, and I need really good protein to keep me feeling full and to fuel my muscles from all of these workouts.  I don’t really have the desire to eat crap, but since my intake is so low, it has to feel worthwhile.

I don’t want to be that person who starts a blog to talk about their weight loss surgery journey and then stops.  Those were all the blogs I was finding while I was researching surgery.  I wanted to know more about how life was post surgery. I guess what it will be is…well, life. We’ll see! I’m enjoying the ride!

And Kellye — I am open to topics. Maybe like the photo challenge I need some blog prompts! Keep me honest!



2 thoughts on “Feeling Bloggy

  1. kelbutt February 11, 2017 / 2:42 am

    Haha! Called out by name! I love it.

    Remember when blogs were a thing? Before IG, FB, Twitter, and the damn election? Sigh. I loved going from random Blogspot to random Blogspot, reading the daily minutiae of lives of people I’ll never meet.

    But when it’s someone I know, I’m even more charmed by the slice of life that they choose to share. For me personally, the most intriguing thing about your weight loss is the effort you’ve put into changing your mind. I love that you’ve been able to lower meds, the systematic way you’ve prioritized lowering your stress levels. I also love the shoutout to Kaia, which I can’t wait to return to! But just documenting your mental journey now that the physical weight is pretty much gone and you’re working on the mental weight is great. More of that, please!

    And, you look fabulous and happier–lighter!–in all your pics. I’m awfully happy for you. ❤️

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    • Marilyn February 11, 2017 / 2:44 am

      I adore you! Thanks for the feedback. I really think so much of this is a mental game. That’s the hard part. But I am mostly amazed that if you say good things to yourself you eventually start to believe them. Next topic! Smooches!


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